Gloriaaa

Remembering 2011.

2011-12-31T07:11:00.001-08:00

Looking back at 2011, I've gotta say I've changed alot. In some aspects I've changed for the better, but in other aspects, I must say for the worst.

2011 is a year that I've achieved/attained most of the things that I've been dreaming of for the past few years, perhaps since TA1. Yet it is also this year that I've fallen in terms of studies, maybe in terms of my attitude too. Sigh, it has been one bitter-sweet year.

Before typing this, I went back to read the post I did exactly one year ago. Idk why but somehow I sounded so much happier. Maybe it was cos there wasnt much hwork during the hols or maybe it's just me.

Ok wtv I shall make a list of this year's events to rmb this year.

1. Things that happened this year

Orientation
Got into 02/11 and SIMPLE PLAN was formed :)
Malacca trip
Polo Nats and eventually...
POLO FINALS (listed separately cos' the experience was just too magical)
Got asked by Kerwei to join National Team goalie trng
Swim Nats - Amazingly got into finals for 100m and 2o0m breaststroke :O
Got into SportsXcel
Induction camp :-D
June swim camp - Ran for and became polo captain
The Leadership Faceoff - My first shot at facilitating
Temasek Appreciation Ceremony - First event Sportsxcel planned :)
Swim JTS
College day
Orisa went off :(
SLCamp!!!! - First time being I/C of such a big event and one of my best learning experiences
Worked with housecomm to plan sports carnival
SLCongress
SportsXcel retreat
Nov Swim Camp - A learning experience for me too.
Outward Bound Korea - Life-changing :)

Woah this year has certainly been eventful. SportsXcel, swim/polo EXCO, OBO, carereps, etc. The list of commitments I have are endless to be honest. There was a certain point this year (around sept before SLCamp and Promos) that I srsly almost gave up, and there were countless number of times that I asked myself why did I take up so much stuff. But deep down inside I know that it is every single one of this events that has got me to where I am, and it is all these events that have built me up to be who I am today. And without all this events school will just be boring and like muggerland where I just mug and do tutorials/ stare at lecturers all day long!!! >:O

2. Events that have changed my life

Polo Nats
This nationals was my first and it is sth that I'll rmb for my entire life. Actually looking back, all I could rmb were the good moments - That game when we won SAJC 8-2, that moment in the SA game when I saved the penalty shot, half the college down at polo nationals cheering their lungs out for us. But reading back the emo posts that I posted in this blog, then I started to recall the tough parts. Training with Mr Bunz, the times when I couldnt save any balls and felt like giving up, the times I felt so lousy for not being able to contribute. But yeah polo is something that has changed my life entirely. And this year is just like the sampler to next year, like a kind of motivation for us to do even better next year.
SportsXcel
I still rmb myself being so caught in between, not being able to decide whether to try for SportsXcel or not. And I'm really seriously thankful that I tried and got in. I guess SportsXcel was what brought me to where I am today. Ok there's so many aspects of SportsXcel that I needa "praise" but the most impt thing would be the people. The 11 of us (plus Mr Tan) make up the best Xcel family that anyone can ever find! We ARE the special batch. :)

(OK FROM THIS POINT ON IM GONNA RUSH ABIT)

SLCamp 2011
The awesomest camp ever in my whole life, and one of the experiences which I learnt the most as a leader. Being I/C of a camp is no easy job, but being I/C of a camp right before promos is like woah, a bomb being dropped onto you. But like I said, no regrets man. Learned super alot during the camp.
OBK
OBK was totally different from the other Outward Bounds. It felt like heaven srsly - No work, nice food, nice weather, awesome people. But it was certainly a life-changing experience. Got to literally experience the saying whereby a person is only as strong as his mind is. Ok I shant talk about OBK cos I suck at writing and wont do the course justice. Go read Clements post on fb lololol.

Ok, now for........

3. Things I needa work on next year

Being a better captain
Honestly I think I suck as captain. Needa work on how to motivate others more, how to push the team towards our goal, and I needa be more focussed.
Being a better goalie
I feel damn cui from not trng for so long and I rlly needa get my form back soon.
GOING TOWARDS OUR GOAL FOR POLO
Studying harder
3 years in TJ, failing everything even though I studies like shit has srsly drained out all the motivation and drive I ever had. Watching Melvin's "How bad do you want success" video was like a wake-up call. SIGH A LEVEL YEAR SIGHHH.

Ok lastly, People that have made 2011 awesum:

Cherie and Divya - Best buddies who have been there for me since 2009
Charmaine, Ruz, KL - My bestest simple plan buddies who bring fun to lessons
SportsXcel family (Zhisen, Melvin, Samantha, Amelia, Vanessa, Geunju, Geunhye, Hangrong, Sandy, Mr Tan) for everything that they've done for me and making school fun
Swim and polo team for being my 2nd family (or 3rd hehe since Sportsxcels my family too)
AWESOME OBK-ers who bring so much rubbish to my life heheh <3

OKAY OMG I TOOK 2HR TO WRITE THIS HEH

2011-07-05T01:40:00.000-07:00

I feel like I am gonna reach my limit soon. For everything.

It never used to be like that, but now every time someone makes some remark about me I realise I can't joke along anymore. There'll come this day when I can't swallow things down anymore. Everytime people say those stuff, I'll just smile and laugh along. But deep in my heart, it hurts so bad. It makes me think so hard every night. And I know one day I'll just break.

Lost

2011-03-16T08:54:00.001-07:00

I feel so...... lost. I really didn't mean to post those statuses to demoralise the team.

Okay I know that we can do this as a team. I know that I can do this. But I just feel so doubtful. Not of the team, but of myself. My goalkeeping skills are like on and off. Sometimes I can do it, sometimes I can't. I can save hard balls but I keep letting in easy balls. I am trying, I know I am. It's like I put in my all, but I just can't do it. I jump, and I miss the ball by that little bit. Or like my fingers touch the ball and it's still a goal.

I really dont wanna let Mr Loh down, I dont wanna let Mr Buns down, I dont wanna let the team down. Now it's not just about me. I dont care if in front of everyone I look like some noob goalie who can't save easy balls. Now it's all about everyone else. Everyone who believes in me. People who put the time in to coach me. And my mom keeps nagging at me to do well and be a good goalie and get into combined schools or else I'll just embarrass Mr Buns.

I have the privilege of having Mr Buns to coach me while other goalies dont. Our training is definitely way more intensive than them. But why is my keeping still same/lousier than them? Then what's the point of Mr Buns putting in so much time and effort to train me?

And what about my team? They swim up and down so hard in the game just to score those goals. For me, I just float at the goalpost and I cant even save those balls?

I feel so scared. Everytime I visualise, I see myself saving goals but somehow I start tearing even with my eyes closed. I start tearing when I think about the team and how it's just gonna suck if on that day im off-form. It's just so scary.

Urgh, idk luh. Sorry team.

I PROMISE I WILL DO MY BEST. But what if my best isnt enough?

I'm sorry.

2011-02-23T07:48:00.001-08:00

I really screwed up today. Didnt just let myself down, but I let the whole team down. They were playing so well till I came in. I know I hadnt played player since months ago, but still. What the hell was I doing?

I disappointed everyone. I made her angry.

1 month to Nationals. Can we do this? Are we ready? Am I ready? I know we can do this. But there's so many What ifs. It's so hard to predict what will happen. But like what Karon said. Polo is supposed to be a game where we don't really have to predict what will happen. We react along with what happens. Same for goalkeeping.

REACTION.

Am I ready? Honestly, I dont know.

:(

2011-01-15T06:45:00.000-08:00

But 2 years have flew by so quickly, and now a "sorry" is all that I can say.

When we collide,

2011-01-08T05:45:00.000-08:00

Baby, let's take this time
Let's make new memories//

Sighhh, I've been reflecting alot these few days idk why!
Especially that day after friday's training when I had to take bus 72 home alone without theresa, the whole bus ride felt like daaaaamn long. It's like I thought about stuff then I slept then I woke up then I thought about stuff again then I slept then even after that when I woke up again I still wasnt home :(

Btw omg the picture above's super pretty eh! Taken by me in school that day when phangzihan and I had to go around school taking pics of the plants and animals for our WOW!

Anyway. Year 2011 has been not bad so far I think! :>

This was how I spent week 1 of 2011!
Monday: Exco outing then elite trng (Btw omg thaaanks exco for celebrating my bday super belatedly I was ttly surprised hahaha cause I didnt expect you guys to celebrate my bday since it's alrdy 2011 hahahaha but still, thanks guys! ♥)
Tuesday to Friday: WOW! with Phang.
Friday evening: Elite trng again!

WOW! has been really great so far! My attachment is like the best cause it isn't too slack, it isn't too tough, and Zihan and I get to set and negotiate our working timings and venue so we dont need to go down to science centre every single day like the other science centre groups! And we get to help create an iphone app which will really be used by the public next time so pple with iPhones please download the app when it's out to support me and Phang!!!!! :)

Anyway, I'm really really glad I chose this eguide thing as my first choice and I really wanna thank God for putting me into my choice! God has really been showing me his favor so far, giving me such a great WOW and phang zihan as my WOW partner. Honestly, things will really be different if I gotta work with someone I'm not familiar with for one whole month. And I've worked with Zihan for like one million times and this is my 5th year working with him so I know how he works though he's like quite strict at times like he wants us to wear uniform or TA polo tee everytime we go to science centre haiyo! But other than that, Im really thankful for everything :>

Oh and omg monday's gonna be Olevel results day.

HCL RESULTS!!!!!!!!!!! :(

Okay but anyway the other sec4 pple are gonna get their results on Monday too. I'm kinda excited yet nervous like I wanna know who's gonna come to TJ and stuff!!!! And our swim/polo DSAs are gonna join us for trng on Monday I cant wait to meet them :) Hope they'll be nice pple!

And polo's gonna start on Wednesday. I wonder what my goalkeeping will be like, hope I dont deprove too much sighhhhh. /Scared

OKAY I SHALL BLOG AGAIN NEXT TIME TIME TO GET BACK TO MY STUUUUPID DAILY LOG WHICH I WAS SUPPOSED TO HAVE COMPLETED YESTERDAY

Things will never be the same again

Remembering 2010 :>

2010-12-31T07:14:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!
Today's the last day of 2010 omg!!!! Hehe and this year I spent my New Year's Eve in the coolest way ever!

Woke up early in the morning -> took train all the way to jurong east -> Met zk and lynette then we went to zk's club -> Swaaaaam till 1.45pm -> Ate at the awesome jap restaurant -> Mrted home

But omg I can't believe I learnt how to swim backstroke and butterfly PROPERLY on the last day of 2010 haha thanks wu zhe kang for teaching me! And thanks lynette for bringing your underwater cam hehe I luv your camera omg! :>

Hahahaha anyway now I shall make lists of impt stuffs that happened in 2010 to remember this year.

1. Events that happened this year

Carrying out of Orientation X
Chun Man Lu Yuan
Duathlon
Sports Day
Movie Marathon
Malacca trip
Polo Nats
Swim Nats
Mardi Gras
June Swim Camp
LA night
B Div Water Polo Friendly thing
JCTs/Promos
Higher Chinese Olevels
SL Congress
SL Camp!
Clarisse leaving :'(
OB Sabah
Intensive trng camp

Hehe these are the more official events. Some events like duathlon etc. may not seem that important, but every event listed is like quite impt to me cause I feel that I learnt something/ gained sth from every event, whether I liked it or not. Hehehe and for movie marathon, I just gotta list that cause I spent the whole night with Gao lao shi hahahaha she spent 4hrs from like 12-4am teaching me how to do 长文缩短 properly hahah!

2. Events that I went through with WCPT (and swim team) to make me love everyone so so much :>

Malacca trip :>
POLO NATS!!!
Swim Nats!
Mardi Gras :)
Theresa's bday where we broke her bed!!!!
June Camp!
B Div match and all the other friendly matches
Intensive training week
Christmas BBQ!
Theresa's Christmas Party :>
And of course countless training sessions and study dates we've had :>

3. Things that happened to me this year and mean ALOT to me

Meeting people like zhekang, theresa, lynette, geunhye,.... who bring so much fun to the team. And they mean the world to me now awww I LOVE YOU GUYS (!!!!!)
Becoming goalie. I'll always rmb 4th Jan this yr when Mr Loh sent me the sms telling me he'll let me be goalie! It kinda changed my life alot hahah ok not rlly alot but still.
Having Mr Buns as my goalie coach. He really helped alot I guess. :)
Becoming TA Captain! I know some pple may think TA Capt is like nothing and it's some crappy role Mr Loh created just for the Bdiv comp., but the role really means alot to me - not as a position but as something to help me grow in terms of being a better team player and being more confident.
OB Sabah. I think the experience was really meaningful and it taught me many important lessons. Plus revealed the true colours of certain people. (Hehe I think this taught me the most out of all the events that happened the whole year. But too much private stuff so i cant write here)
Intensive training week. Hm it was tough. And this was the time where I rlly started to dislike ____. But I know he's doing everything for my good, and I'm really thankful for him. Intensive week was tiring physically and mentally, but I think I rlly learnt alot! Though now Im like back to square one after 2 weeks w/o trng :(

Okay I think that's all!!!! It's like 12.30am now so HAPPY NEW YEAR to the few pple here reading all these :>

2010-12-21T17:20:00.000-08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Woah another year has passed again! So it's hello 2011 and byebye 2010. :>

Hm I have mixed feelings about next year, excited yet nervous!
During the OB Sabah solo reflections I wrote all my aims and goals on the paper so now I needa wait 6 months till they send me the paper then I can see my list of goals again. -_-

Anyway hope 2011 will be a great year!!!!!!! (Or at least be better than 2010!) :>

happaye

2010-10-18T07:33:00.000-07:00

Hahaha shit so many people actually read the previous post!!! (Without me knowing cause they didn't tag - ahem yingzhen, charmaine, etc. hahah)

Anyway I just have to blog today cause today's a day too awesome that I can't skip not blogging it. Hahah my sentence sounds weird but I dont care omg I'm just so tired but happy!

Okay. We got our results back today! So far I've gotten back everything except chinese paper 1.
God really performed so many miracles for my results this time that i have to blog to let readers know about it ^^ Hahah though not many pple even come hear but nvm heh.

The subjects that I did amazingly well (considering my lousy standard):

1. Physics
I got 48/100!!! I know my marks suck but I was really really expecting a 20 or 30 plus mark because I rlly cant do physics and this time I spent my time on bio and chem rather than phy.

2. Bio
OMG I GOT 72.5/100 CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?! 72.5!!!! I think I worked quite hard overall but still. This is like the best thing that ever happened to me since I came into TJ :> This is really like the work of God. My brain will never ever be able to produce such marks without the help of God.

3. Maths paper 2
58 over 100!!!!! Omg I'm super super super super super happy since this is like supposed to be the hard paper. But I guess it kinda evens out my average (or maybe below average) score for Maths paper 1.

4. LA essay
This is the most most most most most amazing miracle ever. I seriously didn't manage to write the essay properly during promos. And I didnt even finish writing my essay. And I only had one miserable real world example which I kinda crapped out. BUT. I managed to get a 25/50 for it!!! When my highest score during class practise is 23/50 plus I wrote that quite well I thought. Omg I was rlly expecting like a 15/50 mark this time. 25/50 is really...... woah. It's like the best present ever.

5. Chem
I got 51/100!!! Which is like >10 marks improvement from JCTs and Ms Liew gave me a sticker for good improvement. :> I'm really truly glad I passed. It's like my effort paid of :)

Thank God!!!!

And clique outing to Marina Barrage + dinner @ Mos burger/Raffles place was fun!!! hehe I loved the dinner part we rlly had fun talking about our sec school times and our funny sec school teachers! :> Though sorry EXCO for not being able to go vivo with you guys, and sorry swim team for skipping land trng. ):

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Haha I'm so tired but happy.
Now all I need to make my day perfect is a nice sweet polo dream which I havent had since before promos.

I wish that one day I'll be the goalkeeper that I see myself as in my dreams.

Sigh

2010-10-11T09:56:00.000-07:00

Sigh I feel so sian now.

My good friend's so sad now. But I can't do a single thing. I dunno how to comfort her, and all I can do is just sit here, watch BOF and wait for her to reply my sms.

Sigh I feel so useless.
Sucks when I can't even do such a simple thing.

Haiz on a different note. Watching BOF rlly made my cry like mad (LOL) and it made me think of ahehem.
2 different worlds.
Whatever idk what im talking about but who cares hehe.
Anyway I rlly hate it when you just use me as what? Your personal whatever-thing to give you whatever you want? Someone you can call to chat with when you're bored or on the way home?
Who am I to you? Srsly. It irritates me when you only chat with me you want to. What about the times when I wanna chat with you? You dont even give a shit damnit. YOU SUCK YOU SUCK YOU SUCK.
Why do I even like you in the first place? You are the most selfish person I ever met in my life. You are selfish, self-centred and everthing.
I dont even care if anyone reads this. If anyone reads this I hope they tell you and I hope you read this and reflect.
I have no idea what made me like you. I HOPE I DONT GET YOU IN MY OB SABAH GROUP I RATHER HAVE MY LAOGONG WHO IS 100000 TIMES MANLIER AND BETTER THAN YOU. You annoying suckerfish. (I sound like theresa omg)

A dream.

2010-08-20T18:28:00.000-07:00

Last night, I had a great dream.
And it isn't water polo.

In my dream, there was this humongous swim team meeting one day before assembly.
The seniors from many many years all came back, and we were meeting to fill in the OBSabah form cause we were going OBSabah together I think.
Then I immediately thought of K then I went to ask the seniors if they have extra OBSabah form, then they say dont have but they say I can get it from the PE office.
So I went there and got the form for K.

hahah ok then after that idk what happened.

Then there's another part where I asked Divya if I can help her do the props thing.
I was scared she won't let me but in the dream she said okay! (Cause i rmb in the dream we edited the script then cherie and divya edited so divya let me do the props editing cause she got so much work to do)

Then skip skip skip.

Then the last part!!! I didnt dream about the actual performance but I dreamt about the part after our performance and the whole thing (either the audition or real night) and Ms Cheah praised us again and we were screaming and jumping around like crazy again cause we were just so happy :)

And the best part (for me) I went to ask K does he still hate me, and he said no.

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Sigh the whole K thing really got me thinking and reflecting and I think I really did nothing much for LA night. It's like I know I can't write well and I definitely can't do the script but then I didnt really do anything else too. At first I started doing the timeline thing but then after awhile I somehow forgot to edit the thing anymore.

OMG I SUCK LUH.

Hello goodbye

2010-07-30T08:25:00.000-07:00

Hi I haven't updated in ages!
Supposed to be sleeping now cause im so tired but I felt like blogging so yeah.

Today we had our first B'Div team trng :)
Excited much for the comp!

Hahah ok I hope no one reads this! (Except for a few people like maybe Ping!)
I think I've gotten over ahem yes oh yes oh yes.
Awesumz. :)

K I promised myself if I manage to finish my loooong to-do list by tmrw night, I'll reward myself by watching Inception. Oh man but I think Im gonna watch alone cause so many people caught the movie alrdy.
Loner stoner! :D

Hahahaha ok bye bloggie I won't come back in a long while.

Smile

2010-04-30T22:04:00.000-07:00

The Dew Drop

As the sun rose, a dew drop became aware of its surroundings. There it sat on a leaf, catching the sunlight and throwing it back out. Proud of its simple beauty, it was very content. Around it were other dew drops, some on the same leaf and some on other leaves round about. The dew drop was sure that it was the best, the most special dew drop of them all.

Ah, it was good to be a dew drop.

The wind rose and the plant began to shake, tipping the leaf. Terror gripped the dew drop as gravity pulled it towards the edge of the leaf, towards the unknown. Why? Why was this happening? Things were comfortable. Things were safe. Why did they have to change? Why? Why?

The dew drop reached the edge of the leaf. It was terrified, certain that it would be smashed into a thousand pieces below, sure that this was the end. The day had only just begun and the end had come so quickly. It seemed so unfair. It seemed so meaningless. It tried desperately to do whatever it could to cling to the leaf, but it was no use.

Finally, it let go, surrendering to the pull of gravity. Down, down it fell. Below there seemed to be a mirror. A reflection of itself seemed to be coming up to meet the dew drop. Closer and closer they came together until finally…

And then the fear transformed into deep joy as the tiny dew drop merged with the vastness that was the pond. Now the dew drop was no more, but it was not destroyed.

It had become one with the whole.

~ Peter Hughes

This made me smile.
This weekend's gonna be a good one. Ended yesterday with a phone call from charmaine, and started my morning with a phone call from . And it totally made my day. :)

End of Nationals

2010-04-23T06:02:00.000-07:00

So today marks the end of swim season for me.
This is my first time going to nationals, and I must say that it's quite a cool experience!

5 things about nationals that I love:
1. The fact that we can go "shopping" along the indoor track corridor everyday (Subway subway subway!)
2. Making new friends and meeting old ones! Hehehe made a new friend Angelyn, and I met Sarah Tan from church (coooliozx) and met long ago tuition friend Ivy. What a small world 8D
3. Sleeping and studying at TJ's cosy corner @ the pool. Hahaha today was quite shiok.
4. The fact that awesome people (Angelique Theresa Jasper Jiewei Claudia) managed to teach me how to plunge like just hours before my first event. Omg it was rlly super duper uber scary.

And saving the best for the last..........

5. My super awesome teammates. Angelique Theresa Yingzhen!!!!! Seriously. Without you guys, my first ever nationals wouldn't have been this awesome, this full of fun, this memorable. Thank you so much everyone for doing their best in the relays, and even though we didn't get into the finals for everything, we should be proud of ourselves! I still rmb before the freestyle relay we kinda just put our hands on each others' shoulders and walked to the place to register, and that just made me so happy. Idk why but I felt so at home with you guys! And omg our "WARM DOWN" session was just epic fun omg I want another warm down like that. Hehehe it was so super fun and I bet we would just have gone on and on if the sports school guy didn't stop us. Hahaha water cheerleading ftw! Omg I'm missing nats and our team alrdy. I love you 3 other pang pangs :) Hope that our friendship will last forever and despite all our past conflicts and all I rlly rlly love you guys and hope that we will stay close forever and be true BFFs, be it bad friends (for yz) or best friends (for angelique and theresa)! :) Haha eh btw we forgot to shit together after nationals! PANG PANG! Hahaha I love you guys.

Okay I think i gtg sleep soon. Duathlon tmrw! Hope I won't let divya lg down. Haiz argh I'm falling sick and my head is spinning like craaaazy ):

OH BTW. I CAN'T WAIT FOR POLO SEASON TO START!!!!!!!!!!! :)

:/

2010-04-20T19:50:00.001-07:00

Happy because people do care about me.
Sad because......, Idk what to think.

:)

2010-04-20T07:33:00.000-07:00

So what if she's prettier than me?
So what if she's taller than me?
So what if she can speak better than me?
So what if she's more sociable?
So what if she's smarter than me?

You know what? I don't care. Because God made me this way and I love God for giving me all that I have. :)

I really can't stand it when you always confuse me like that.

Btw, please ignore my weird post ahahah mind's in a whirl now. I'm going crazyyyy

Psalm 23

2010-04-16T05:35:00.001-07:00

I decided to remove all my previous posts because I realised my blog isn't as dead as I think it to be.
Hi all readers plz tag okay :)

Life sure has changed since the past post.
This week was one hectic week. Tons of hwork everyday, tons of tests everyday.
And even though it is friday today, we still can't rest cause gotta chiong for openhouse tmrw!!!!! ):

But the best thing is I managed to survive today!!!!!
Which consists of Maths test (which I only studied for last night), Chinese kaocha (didn't study properly), Geog presentation (went up and crap), Bio presentation (the only thing I'm well prepared for).
I managed to survive!!!!!! Praise the Lord.

Haiz okay I'm rlly gonna study early for kaocha next time, I needa get my close-to-full-marks score! :)

Okay anyway during school cell group on Wednesday I shared about how my parents don't wanna let me go for swimming and polo victory dinner and how Psalm 23 comforts me and now I feel alot alot alot better like no more heart painz anymore. (Happaye-aye-aye-aye!)

Alright tmrw is openhouse don't think I can go church so yeah haiii.

Shit myself

2010-04-11T02:33:00.000-07:00

I really hate it whenever you talk to me and Idk what to say and I start talking like some retard and then you get fed up and then you tell me you gtg but you're actually appearing offline because you don't wanna waste your time talking to a retard.

And then in my heart it actually hurts. Alot.

I love my team

2010-04-07T06:45:00.000-07:00

Just read Clarisse's WP reflections on facebook (http://www.facebook.com/notes/clarisse-ong/water-polo-reflections/412324295265) and omg I really felt like crying.

We lost 16-1. But so what?!
I'm so proud of my team, I know they have all done their best.

And like what Clarisse said:

" We may have lost to SAJC and RI in terms of goals, but our spirits, teamwork, friendship and courage won them a thousand times over. It is an honour to be part of this team, a truly WORLD CLASS water polo team."

And this motivates me to train even harder for next yr.
We needa pwn SA and RI. Not just for TJC, but for ourselves and Mr Loh, and the year 2s.

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ARGH I STILL CAN'T BELIEVE POLO SEASON IS OVER. ):

Give up

2010-04-06T21:53:00.000-07:00

Okay I give up.
Think what you wanna think, do what you wanna do.

I entrust everything to God. :)

Idk what to feel

2010-04-06T06:26:00.000-07:00

I kinda really reflected about this and I hope you (two) have too.

Okay I did talk bad about you but I'm not the one who started all these crap first. I guess my biggest mistake was talking bad/ bitching about you to others cause that was what made everything screw up okay so that's my fault. I'm sorry, my bad.

Oh but btw are you sure you never ever expected history to repeat itself again? Cause I kind of expected something like this to happen again. And I can totally predict us patching up and quarreling again because we both know in our hearts what our own problems are and somehow our characters just clash or sth idk.

And idk what I'm feeling now honestly. It's like this whole whirlwind of feelings in me and I don't even know how I'm supposed to feel. I'm kinda angry with your post, annoyed with you, relieved because I finally know directly from your blog how you feel about this, tired of all this, and I'm stuck. I really don't know what to do now.

And I blogged all these to let you know how I feel, and not with the aim of making matters worst.

Honestly, this time I don't have too extreme feelings. Maybe cause it's the second time or sth, idk. In my heart I really hope things will change but yet I know the chance of it is low. Instead I'm disappointed with (another) you. Like I read your blog and yeah of course our friendship has changed. How do you expect me to treat you the same after everything that has happened? How do you expect me to treat you the same after all you can say to me is the same few discouraging things like "You suck" or "I hate you" or whatever. I'm not here for you to scold, I'm not here for you to vent your anger on. And I don't care whether it's a joke or not. You keep doing that everyday and it isn't a joke to me anymore. It's not that I'm angry, I'm just disappointed. And annoyed. If you hate me so much, why talk to me? Haiiiii.

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Ok I'm prepared for the worst, prepared to see people changing sides like nobody's business, prepared to see people's true colours, prepared to lose many friends.
But nevermind because no matter what, God's on my side. I pray that he'll keep me strong in times like this, and he'll give me courage and wisdom to tackle the whole problem. I pray that everything will go fine in the end, and even if it doesn't, God will open another door.
God, I'm counting on you. :)

Okay to you two again. Really this post isn't meant to make matters worst. If there's any probs or what just tell me okay plz. Cause I rlly don't know how else to communicate other than through here.

Disappointment/

2010-04-04T05:56:00.000-07:00

Honestly, I was shocked.
I was more than shocked. I was disappointed.

Somehow my brain keeps telling me you're on my side, you're someone I can trust.
Maybe it's just love that is blinding me.

But I guess it's my fault.
I made too many wrong assumptions, I trusted the wrong people.

And now they're joining her. After they know all my secrets, they're joining her.
It's my fault.

Told my mom about this and she told me to stop bitching about people.
And I am seriously gonna stop 'cause:
1. I don't wanna be like her
2. The bible says "Love your enemies"
3. I don't wanna get cheated by people whom change sides after I tell them every single thing.

YAY I AM GONNA BE AN AMBASSADOR OF PEACE V(^.^)V

Okay tmrw gonna be the match against ACJC, Jiayou WCPT you guys can pwn them!
We will emerge victorious!!!!!! :)

Hosanna

2010-03-27T09:14:00.001-07:00

Lord please help me, and help her too.

Lord you amaze me

2010-03-27T08:01:00.002-07:00

God is just...... amazing.
Everything he does is just so amazing, so wonderful.

The greatest miracle that has happened to me so far:
I found my lost thumbdrive!

And this is definitely the work of God.
Lost it since the last day of school, and have been praying about it everytime I think of my poor lost thumbdrive.
And I really really searched everywhere. And I couldnt find it.

AND GUESS WHERE I FOUND IT JUST NOW.
IN MY SCHOOLBAG. THE WEIRD NIKE SCHOOL BAG!
AND I DIDNT EVEN BRING THAT BAG TO SCHOOL ON THE DAY I LOST MY THUMBDRIVE!

See how amazing God is :-)
He really answers all my prayers and ah, I love him so much!

Anyway the best is yet to come!
The best will only come on the 7th April when we win Raffles and go to the finals :)
I CAN'T WAIT. (!)

We are the champions

2010-03-24T12:56:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was our match vs SAJC, and we lost.
But I know it isn't over, we will still win the war.

Because God has already won the victory for us at the start. Now all we got to do is play well for the next 2 matches, then off we can go to claim our victory at the finals with SAJC once again!!!! :)

The presence of God was just so powerful ytd.

Before going for the match, we had this mini worship and praying session and God just touched my heart. I hadn't expected myself to ever be praising and worshipping God like that with my polo team, and seeing my teammates there, singing and praying together, just touched me. And Claudia's story of the victory race kinda inspired me and made me feel that we will definitely win.

So when we lost to SA, I was terribly terribly disappointed and everyone was too. (Hahaha I cried on the bus shit and when I came home I cried even more roar.) But now that I think of it, it's like WHY CRY?! This it just part of God's plans to get us to the championship! So let us just work hard while letting God guide us on for the rest of the competitions. :)

GO WCPT, I LOVE YOU GUYS! HAVE FAITH IN YOURSELVES, THE TEAM, MR LOH, AND MOST IMPORTANTLY, HAVE FAITH IN GOD. :)

Matthew 7:7

2010-03-19T09:03:00.000-07:00

"Keep on asking, and you will receive what you ask for. Keep on seeking, and you will find. Keep on knocking, and the door will be opened to you." (Matt 7:7)

Hahaha it's over the 12am mark so it's considered saturday alrdy. Which means 4 more days to the Polo nationals. (Oh and Divya laogong is coming back from hk today sorry lg I can't pick you up.) :/

Anyway Polo trng today was great. Fun yet productive and mr loh was happy :) I think I'm improving a teensy weensy bit at goalkeeping! Can save maybe 1/5 of the balls haha I know that kinda sucks but it's considered good for me heh last time I think the percentage of balls I saved was like 1% or something shit.

I think overall everyone's improving and we're moving closer and closer to our goal of winning SA and maybe getting our championship! We're world class okayyy :)

Dinner with yingzhen and theresa today was great! Bubble tea + $1.80 chicken rice! And haha yingzhen was super epic she broke her bubble tea cup when poking her straw in hahaha so cuuuute ok!

Bus trips to and from ITE Simei with Theresa was awesome. On the way there we lauuuughed the whole way through. On the way home we had this rather serious talk about everything and it wasn't a really great talk but somehow it felt great. I really hope things will get better!

Oh and during trng it was so fun hahaha there was this part when it rained uber heavily and we had to get out of the water and then me christy yingzhen theresa rachel zhekang just lauuughed non-stop till our stomaches hurt like crap and haha now I can't even rmb what were we laughing about!!! Omg fun fun fun. There's like quite alot of problems beneath the surface but somehow I'm feeling more and more attached to this team. Like I'm really part of this big family which has many quarrels and stuff but no matter what happens we're still one family. haiii Idk i'm really confused now but ARGH I REALLY LOVE THIS TEAM SO MUCH! I'm contradicting myself but argh, nevermind. :) I understand can alrdy heheh.

Okayyy back to bio now. Jiayou JC2s who are mugging super hard for MCTs!

Sidenote: Church tmrw!!!! I haven't gone for youth in ages. ):

Back from Malacca!

2010-03-17T20:55:00.000-07:00

Title says it all.

Malacca camp was just awesome. Had a great time getting to know some awesome people (Ping, Theresa, Christy, Rachel, Karon!) better. My dearest roomie, Karon! Hahaha I cant believe I used to think you didnt like me and stuff but now you're like so nice! Plzzz start mugging okay, roomie! Love you:) And not forgetting Angelique Poh Bee Bee the brave who made it throughout the trip even though she lost her wallet. AngeliQ hahahah I love you hee. :) Theresa brown cow thanks for being such a great bus buddy throughout the trip and oh man you're so entertaining that I can't take it! Christy Bartea I love you too hahaha I'll alwys rmb our pact and the many dirty little secrets!!!!!!! And rmb our byebye-byebye! Pong hahaha thanks for being so nice and funny and entertaining too TIANLE will never forget you :) And lastly, Rachel our dear captain! In my eyes, you are always a great captain okay. Don't be brought down by what others say and always believe in yourself! Love you :)

Oh and Zhekang there's a chance you may see this so: Thanks for the 3 ringgit hahaha I'm sad to say that I didn't even use it hahah see I told you not to give it to me but you didn't believe me see what happen now!!! Haha too bad you wasted your money :)

Okay shall stop here. I'm screwed for geog tmrw but I can't bear to skip trng so I'm just gonna leave geog aside. O:

//Polo nationals is in 6 days time. Jiayou TJ WP team!!! I have faith that we can do it this time. We're world class and we're gonna make history! :)

Malacca!

2010-03-11T08:38:00.000-08:00

After tmrw, there's gonna be no more CIP!!!! (whootz)
And I'm so looking forward to swim camp @ Malacca from tmrw to wednesday!

Don't miss me guys. 8D
You brightened my day today.

The Lord is my Shepherd

2010-03-07T07:04:00.001-08:00

Gonna have trng tmrw.

JIAYOU TJ WATER POLO TEAM!!!!
We are the champions. :)

):

2010-03-05T06:24:00.000-08:00

Today's like one of my worst days in 2010 so far.

I've never ever felt so sad over polo until now.
The day just kinda screwed up from training onwards.

Was sad/angry/irritated cause of her.
Like I know she's my senior, but what rights does she have to give us this kind of shit. Just now there was this point when I really felt like standing up for myself, I really felt like shouting back. She's just taking everything for granted. Ok but I didn't dare to so yeah I'm a coward. (Sucks to that.) Ok so now I gotta think of how to solve this whole problem and anyway shouting back won't help much and instead it'll just make matters worst. Guess I'll just wait and see. And try to accept her for who she is. On a sidenote: I think I'm doing great at the moment, keeping all the anger to myself :)

Then after that it was the team thing. I almost broke down seeing Mr Loh so sad. It hurts to see him being disappointed, after all that he has done for us. He's like the bestest ever coach/teacher/friend/everything. I really really don't wanna let him down. Hope the team doesn't too. Hopefully today's team talk/scolding woke everyone up. TJC Water polo girls, there's still hope okay!!!

Then I became even more upset when I smsed you and you didn't reply. I'm not angry but I'm just........... idk. Disappointed? Idk luh I'm just really upset now.

Thanks Yingzhen Christy Angelique Theresa for trying to cheer me up. Love you guys loads.
And of course, I wanna thank god for always helping me to survive every difficult day there is. :)

Yayyyy now I'll probably go sleep and when I wake up tmrw, I'll forget everything.

GO TJC WATER POLO!!!!!!

Hey soul sister

2010-02-28T06:05:00.000-08:00

I reread my previous post and realised that it was a kinda sucky post so now I'm posting a new post to cover up the previous one.

RANDOM PICTUREZ I TOOK!

Okayyy I can't wait for tmrw! Though i'm not really looking forward to vball + swim trng tmrw cause my leg muscles are still aching. Badly. ):

I'm an artist HAHAHA

2010-02-27T20:26:00.000-08:00

Omg I can't help but blog even though I currently dislike blogging now for some weird reason that even I do not know.

OK ANYWAY..........
I DID A DRAWING! A REALLY COOL ARTISTIC DRAWING!

It's like the first drawing I ever did.
Usually I only do typography or make cool cards or sth, but never a drawing!

A DRAWING OMG I CANT BELIEVE IT PRAISE THE LORD :)

Steady hands just take the wheel

2010-02-12T18:37:00.001-08:00

Happy New Year's Eve!

Shall blog about ytd! Carnival + Road run was amazingly quite fun! Oh and ytd was Aisyah Shaojie Michelle PoYang and dunno who else's birthday! So happy birthday people! Road run was omgz I just ran and ran and ran and then I caught up with the competitive runners and the feeling of finishing the run was just amazing. :)

I didnt manage to finish the bookmarks by ytd so I didn't give them out. ): Oh but clique made a nice gigantic corrugated board card for Aisyah and it was awesome!!!! Though some Alpha HC guy stepped on the card Hmph. >:(

Ok anyway thaaanks people for the vday gifts:
Shaleen for her cute pink heart balloon and muffinz!
Gao ls for the Seaweed thing (I love that thing btw heh)
Divya for her pink letter and 4 chocs!
Divya for the balloon she bought me during the carnival (Ily laogong!)
Mr Loh for the rose!

Oh and it was great cause Cherie bought a balloon too and we wrote DAR and DEE on our balloons so it was kinda cool when we walked together with our balloonz. 8D

And I love Mr Loh for the rose! My first time getting a rose and I love the rose omg! I think it's my second favourite thing to receive after cards. :>

Ok Then me yingzhen cherie went to parkway for lunch! Subwayyy~ Oh and I saw Teo Jafie there!!!!! Hahahaha ok after that me cherie yingzhen wasted some time at borders and the apple store, then we went home. :)

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Ok today's new year eve and the eve of valentine's day too!
But nevertheless, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR AND VDAY! :)

I just don't love you no more.

Always look on the bright side

2010-02-06T21:11:00.000-08:00

Life has been okay so far!
Busy but still manageable, really headache stuff happened last wk ($362 phone bill wt shit!) but with God's help, I managed to pull through it all. :)

Oh and btw my phone bill was cancelled. Yeah like it's truly a miracle. I'm gonna share about it during school cell this week :D Singtel's retarded they cheat my money lahhh wl heheh but at least the bill's cancelled.

Oh and my tablet crashed. Praying hard now! Hopefully I can save the stuff in my com, if not it's bye bye to all my notez from school and my photoshop (that i downloaded from some weird website) and all my photozzz. ): Btw, thanks yingzhen and jeremy for wasting so much time on the phone with me just to give me directions to try to save my com!!!

Ok. Ytd's GGday was uber tiring but fun! Love group 1 hehe and I love the nice old lady who gave Me stevenhalim & Jasmine 5 curry puffs each when we went to her house to collect newspapers. Lunch with titus yingzhen szewei was kinda rushed then after that I went to yingzhen's house to study bio! It was kinda productive yet i didn't meet my goal of completing bio at her house aww. Anw, yingzhen next study date will be at my house ok. (Ben and jerry's mudslide icecream!)

Ok baaack to homework. :D

//Btw I put on ALOT of weight during the last one week cause I woke up late everyday to study and I ended up eating loads of chips/biscuits/sweets and drinking coke/coffee at 3am in the morning. ): Bleah.

):

2010-01-29T21:39:00.001-08:00

Too many things on my mind now.
Projects, homework, elite, volleyball.
24hrs is definitely not enough for me.
No more you. People, please stop spreading.

Elite?!

2010-01-27T07:16:00.000-08:00

Today's just another cool day.
(Everyday's the same, but everyday's cool!)

1. We got our orientation tees.
WHOOO EXCO'S AWESOME WHOOO!

2. I ate in class during both maths lessons today!
Heh thanks jeremy and samantha for blocking me hehe.

3. Had our very very first cohort cell group ever!
I hope we'll multiply!!! And I know we can. 8D

4. I slept in 2A after contact time today!
First time I really lied down in school and sleeeeep. :)

5. Squeezed in Mr Loh's van (with szewei angelique yingzhen jasper clarisse!) to swimming today! Hahaha It was great fun. Though my feet were numb after that. And szewei leaned on me till this whole big sweat patch formed on my skirt (cause I was sitting in a weird way).

6. I'LL BE JOINING ELITE IN APRIL WITH ANGELIQUE.
Happy? Nervous? Scared? Mixed feelings.

Ok these kinda sums up my day.
You didn't come again.

I am bored at home.

2010-01-24T00:55:00.000-08:00

Omg omg omg.
So. Much. Homework. To. Do.
Why do I feel so nervous everytime you call me?
Sometimes I dunno what to say to you.

You've got a smile that could light up this whole town

2010-01-22T16:17:00.000-08:00

I just had to update cause ytd was one of the best dayz ever! (Y)
And, I'm happy now. :)

/Had a talk with another you and omg I didn't know I had hurt you so much. I'm so so so sorry. Though it won't help now. Haiz now that I think of it, it's really me that's too selfish already.

Ok later on I'm going on a date with yingzhen!!!!! To do bio. ): Hahahah but nevermind at least I get to go out of my house. Haven't gone out (other than school and church and polo) in ages. 8D

"Your voice is now my favourite sound, and your name is now my favourite noun." - Famous Art Thieves (Jellyfish Bandits)

I like you

2010-01-16T05:27:00.000-08:00

Week 1 of school's officially over.
Guess I can now say that I've kinda adjusted to my new school life, one filled with waterpolo and tuition.

Omg but I can tell you the change from last yr to this yr is scary.
And I don't really like my tchers. They've either changed, or they're just weird right from the start.

Ok anyway. School life's hectic yet meaningful. I kinda like my life now cause it's so packed till I dont get to waste a single minute of it. I'm either studying, or having polo, or doing something. I don't get to slack at all other than now. So yeah, it's quite good.

Ok lastly. To cch vballers:
All the best for the vball competitions!!!!! Whether East zone or mini cup or any other match! I'll be supporting you guys mentally. You guys can do it okokokok! Luvvvv you all. 8D

Alright back to work.

Sometimes I feel so bad to my vball team, as in the TJC one. It's like I got you all into this and now I'm just leaving you guys stuck like that. I'm so sorry, people.

Before the start of the new term

2010-01-09T04:31:00.000-08:00

So yeah. Orientation X has ended, just like that.
The months and months of planning just gone in 3 short (but awesome!) days.
Onight that I have been planning and worrying about is over too!

Ok orientation was AWESOME. Even though we met with some problems along the way (especially for Onight), I'm proud to say that we have gone through everything already. And now that it's gone, it feels weird. :/

Anywayyyy. I got to know some juniors. Though only a few compared to the OGLs. I got to know another GLORIA from AHS! She's uber nice and smart and pretty and cool and awesome! Woohoo I'm proud to have such a great twin. And we decided that she'll be the smart and cool Gloria while I'll be the cool Gloria. Gloria(s) Rock! And she may be joining vball next yr! :D

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Open house today was awesome. Had an uber chat at library with Chubin Yingzhen Titus Samantha, and our chat continued at lunch and dragged on till after lunch. It was really like a h2h talk and we went really deep into things.. Idk but it felt awesome letting everything out.

I love these people, whoo~

Ok I like y o u

:)

2010-01-04T05:52:00.000-08:00

Today, is the best day of 2010 so far. 8D
EXCLUDING THE FACT THAT I DROPPED (PLUS SCRATCHED BADLY) MY 2-DAY-OLD PHONE.

Anyway shall sum up the series of FUN events today.

Went to Kallang Leisure Park.
Realised I was early so ended up sitting at Koufu alone eating my breakfast and doing maths.
Iceskating with cherie divya aisyah shaleen! AWESOME!!!
Lunch @ Pasta mania.
Shopped for Hcomm stuff @ Popular with Foo Sze Wei.
MRTed to ITE Simei.
Swimming!
Home sweet home.

Oh but today was cool cause a good thing and bad thing happened to me.
The awesomest thing was that Mr Loh said he'll be trng me to be goalkeeper omg omg omg I'm so happy I can't stand it. It'll be so tiring and fun and awesome yay I love mr loh. 8D

The bad thing is that I dropped my phone and now the front's scratched and it's so obvious that my phone's scratched cause the part that got scratched is the nice chio black part which makes the scratches look so obvious and shit my phone's only 2-days-old and look what happened. Great!

But whatever happens, praise the lord! Thank god for letting mr loh train me! And thank god for my new phone. :)

When we stood beside each other, something told me that Yes, I do feel something for you.

Without you

2010-01-02T08:01:00.001-08:00

HELLO TODAY WAS AWESOME. :>
It felt weird when you called; but during these few days that you didn't, I wish you called. The irony of it all.

New year, new start

2010-01-01T00:38:00.001-08:00

GOSH I CAN'T BELIEVE 2010 IS HERE.

Okay seriously, 2009 flew by everyone just like that. Looking back at the year, there are certain things that I regretted doing and things that I really enjoyed, great times spent with clique and 1A, and times when I really felt like just giving everything up. But I guess that's life isn't it? :)

I'm kinda looking forward to next year. I think I wanna start anew in both in TA, studies-wise; and in church. Okay anyway shall just post some reflections and stuff for memory-sake. Stuff that are bolded are like the more impt stuff.

Good things that have happened this year:
1 Made new friends
2 Have a group of friends that will help me whenever I need their help
3 Joined water polo
4 Grew slightly closer to church friends
5 Joined TASCIP and managed to get elected as EXCO
6 Got some really good teachers that helped me alot
7 Good cell leaders like Heli, James, Peifen
8 I managed to survive 2009.

Regrets for this year:
1 Not working hard enough studies-wise
2 Not being able to do well in my studies
3 Not making full use of my time
4 Not keeping in touch with vballers and 2HM people often
5 Pulling so many people into vball and not being able to train them properly/find a coach

New year resolutions: (Everything here's impt so I shan't bold anything.)
1 Grow close to my new friends in 2C/09
2 Work hard and get a B3 or A2 for HCL Olevels
3 Grow close to my new cell group and church friends
4 Do well in my studies, get a GPA of at least 3.5 for JCTs
5 Get A for maths and physics (My mom says I got to cause I have tuition for these 2 subjs) D:
6 Be more hardworking
7 Excel in water polo!!!

Hope that next year will be a better and more meaningful and fulfilling year!

Sidetrack: Honestly, without God's grace, I won't be able to survive and make it through this year. Looking back, God has helped me in many ways, whether big or small. He has been behind me all these while, cheering me on. So really, God is almighty and I love him so much. :D

Okay anyway. Goodbye 2009, hello 2010!

Afraid

2009-12-27T00:04:00.000-08:00

Maybe, just maybe.

I'm afraid of you, I'm afraid of love.

Too late for regrets

2009-12-19T07:05:00.000-08:00

Tascip, homework, christmas cards, tuition homework.
All to be done by tmrw, except for hwork.

There's like so many things on my mind.

I wasted my hols. There was tons of things I wanted to try doing, tons of things I wanted to revise before next yr starts, homework which I could have finished a long time ago is stuck hanging in the air just because I'm lazy to do a teeny part of it which requires abit more thinking/research.

I was supposed to buy the campfire prizes last last week but it still isn't done.
I was supposed to finish my Onight action plan sometime this week but it still isn't done.
I was supposed to add Mr Low on msn and ask him about the chem questions I have problems with but it still isn't done.

By tmrw noon, I've got to complete the ENTIRE orientation action plan. And I have church in the morning.
By church tmrw at 11am, I've got to plan out my mini script for little lights and do the crafts.
By tmrw night, I've got to get my orientation night action plan completed.
And by tmrw night too, I've got to compile the entire OGL camp booklet and send it to zihan.

AND THE WORST THING IS, I HAVE A CHRISTMAS PARTY AFTER CHURCH TMRW.

And the party ends at night. Shit what am I going to do shit shit shit. And I alrdy stayed up till like 4 last night and woke up at 6 today just to complete the dump OGL camp action plan.

Now im like super tired. My eyes are dying. My brain's dying. God plz help me. I'm praying for a miracle.

//Stressed up. Dead beat.

Hiatus

2009-12-10T04:00:00.000-08:00

Things that I'm currently really busy with:
1. Homework
2. Water polo / Swimming trainings
3. Tascip

Goals for the remaining hols:
1. Be able to improve my ball handling to the max
2. Improve my freestyle timing
3. Complete holiday homework
4. Finish planning orientation properly

So yeah, I won't be blogging anymore. Whatever free time I have will automatically be donated to facebook/TASCIP/the bed. :D

Just get back up when it knocks you down

2009-11-29T09:06:00.001-08:00

Back from Pass-it-on camp!

Camp this year was really enjoyable, love my group passion boomz consisting of Me Sixuan Jieyi Sarah Vivian Cheeyeo Shianglin Ruoxin Jingwen ZP Keith Jameslow Jamessng Germaine. (!!!!!) Awesome people. :)

Oh and thanks sarah for the pretty bday card and bookmark!!!!!! Heartz. :>

Games on day 1 were fun! Loved the night games super alot, and amazing race was fun too though we slacked at Macs for a really long while. And there were no dirty games this year yay! :)

Day 2. We did our CP proj and had holy spirit night! CP project was fun! Love the buying and packing of all the goodies! Went door to door to give out the party packs, though it was a waste that most residents weren't at home. ): Holy spirit night was great as usual. I could totally feel the presence of God throughout the whole thing!!!! And idk why but I felt so freeeee and all during worship. Jumped like mad during the worship even though I'm not the jumpy type of person. It just felt as if I was released from some burden or sth, idk! But the feeling was great. God is awesome!!!!!!!! :)

Highlights of today. 2nd service and our delicious pasta mania buffet lunch whoo~ Lunch was the best ever! Ate and ate and ate. Oh and omg I weird eating problem got cured during church camp! No longer feel like vomiting when I eat already whoohooo~ Now I can start eating properly again yes yes yes yes yes. C: Praise the Lord!

Ok that sums up church camp.

// I can't believe you sent me a card. You didn't even sign off, didn't put your address there, you didn't even put your name on any part of the card. But somehow I know it's from you! Idk. I feel happy and shocked at the same time. And I have no idea what to do now. Sms? But does the card mean you're willing to befriend me once again? I really don't want history to repeat itself.

Happyyyyyyy

2009-11-24T07:25:00.001-08:00

Yesterday and today were probably the best days of my life.

This year's birthday is the best ever!!! Thankz everyone for the presents and smses and facebook wishes love you all to the max max max. Had 2 birthday surprises! One from my family and one from exco omg I love you guys like mad and I was super shocked plus touched. :D :D :D

The surprise from exco totally caught me offguard! Ok not off guard but idk how to say. Today as usual I went to school tired for mass dance practise. And the worst thing was that I woke up late and chioooonged and I had to force my mom to fetch me cause I was worried I'll be late and get scolded by phang zihan! And when I reached, I realised I was uber early and zihan wasn't there. -_- Then watched szewei do his taecyon dance then chatted with szewei and shaleen for awhile, then we went back to dance studio and then suddenly the lights turned off. Then everyone thought there was a power failure or something then Exco brought in the cake and cards and omg! Ahhhhh I'm really touched. Thanks so much exco for everything!!!!!!! I love you guys!

And unexpected people remembered my birthday! Oh and even though I'm one day late, happy birthday Rachel and Weiquan! Thanks weiquan for specially looking for my hp number just to wish me happy birthday when it's your bday too! I really love my new swimming seniors. :)

Oh and Cherie dar. Thanks so much for the present and card! I know you may be suffering at the workshop now, jiayou!!!! Although we wont be in the same class next year, I still love you okay dars forever. :)

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Even though I spent my birthday at maths tuition then swimming training, 23rd Nov was really a great day. Luv everyone who made my day enjoyable.

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Oh and swimming trainings are getting more and more tiring each time. But I think I'm slowly improving. Jiayou everyone! I love yingzhen today for helping me do something. Ahhhh love you. Love swimming trainings, especially the front and back parts when me yz chubin szewei meet to go there and meet to go home! Super awesome company. :)

Don't you cry tonight

2009-11-20T16:12:00.000-08:00

BORED.

Have tons of tascip letters to write. Finally done editing the invitations to the tutors and Principal, Dean and the THREE Vprincipals. THREE. Why on earth do we have 3 principals!!!! Ok just wondering.

Now I needa write out another 7/8 letters to ask the tutors if they are ok with their talk timeslots. And the prob is I can't write letters. I can't start. Even if I start, I can't continue. And even if I can continue, I don't know how to end. Epic.

And I was supposed to send the stuff ages ago and I can't seem to write how how how. No matter what, I gotta send out the stuff today. If not I'm dead. Arghhhhh.

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Ok sorry for the crappy stuff above! Now I shall blog about ytd before going back to my letters. ):

Ytd I met Calistaaa Tang Ga Yan at parkway and at first I thought I was late and raaaan across the overhead bridge across the road to PP and then....... I realised Curry wasn't there then I waited. And waited. And waited for like 40+ minutes then she finally turned up!

Ate at Mos burger and chatted. Then we went to the toilet. (--> Cali's fav part of the day!) Haha then we walked around. Went to Cotton on the the random shops and omg I spent 10 bucks on this notepad and paper flags. They were so cute I couldn't resist. And Cali was so tempted to buy all the cotton on stuff! Oh and printz moved out alrdy sad sad sad. ): Oh but this new shop moved in and that shop has all the chio notebookz stickerz etc.! I need to buy that shop...! ):

After that we realised it's 4 alrdy then I chionged to training. Had trng alone with all the seniors cause Angelique Felicia Yingzhen pangsehed me. Then I realised trng was SWIM trng, not WATER POLO. Ahhh I thought I'd die but I didn't. :D

I was assigned to swim in the guys lane with 2 guy seniors. Forgot their names but one of them has the same bday as me! :) Oh and it was embarrassing cause I cant swim straight. Then I kept cutting into their side omg. Haha but they weren't angry or anything. Oh and I swam alot alot alot. I think around 50 length laps. But it was worth it cause Mr Loh corrected my freestyle and breaststroke then now I can swim better.

After that we had abit of polo trng. Had to swim with the ball and I almost died. As in literally die cause my neck was so tired I kept sinking! Then thank god Mr Loh let me rest. :)

Then did ball stuff in the water. I wasn't as good as on wed cause I was too tired. So my throws and catches rlly sucked. ): Oh and Mr Loh swam ytd! Kianleong if you see this: I SAW THE LIZARD TATOO!!! Omg actually I take back what I said about Tatoos being gross and all. The lizard actually suits Mr Loh luh it's quite nice. :)

Haha ok after that I went home with the seniors. Bused with Rachel, Penny and the Alien guy to Bedok interchange. Haha Rachel and the Alien guy's really funny! Husband and wife tgt what! Ok then I bused home with Penny! Uber cool we stay so near each other!!!

And yay I got to bring the polo ball home to practise!!! Whooo. And Mr Loh gave me a swimming cap! Woooootz. Ok done with my wordy post, back to letters now. ):

Why does love always feel like a battlefield

2009-11-18T07:05:00.000-08:00

Whoo, I edited this pic to remember my first water polo trng!

Today was tiring but fun. C:
Went to train my swimming in the morning. Swam 10 laps plus. Pathetic, but I was uber tired after that.

Went to Aston's with my mom and bro for lunch to reward myself after the swim.
Awesome. 8D

Then trng at 4pm. Supposed to meet yz at pasir ris at 3.15 but I was a bit late. Sorry yingzhen!
Ok after that we met felicia and angelique at tanah merah, then bused there. Whooo~

Training time!
Did some ball handling at the beginning. I paired with Angelique first, then senior Lynn. Oh and the seniors are really nice. Really really. And there's this senior Rachel who was really nice by talking to us when we first reached and helping us the whole time.

Then when the rain stopped, we were supposed to swim 16 laps of the breadth of the pool. But only Angelique managed to complete it. Ahhh my swimming really sucks. And I kept feeling like vomiting throughout the pathetic 10 laps that I completed. :/

Next we learnt to tread water! The water polo way. Super tiring. And it needs super good coordination between legs and hands which I am not so good at. But I still did it in the end! :)
Then we did ball handling stuffs in the water. I did ok but it was really tiring when you gotta tread water + throw/catch the ball at the same time.

Then we practised attacking! My fave part. We gotta swim with the ball to the goal area then shoot! Funnnnnn. Then we practised some fouling stuff then I chiiiiionged home. :/

YAY OMG THE WHOLE THING WAS UBER FUN.

Ok the end.

Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere,

2009-11-13T05:42:00.000-08:00

Everytime I'm given a chance, I'll just have to screw it up.
I bet you must be thinking I'm the most boring person on Earth now who can't even keep a simple conversation going oh man I admit I suck.

Ahhhhh Gloria you suck. >:(

I think, I'm falling for you

2009-11-11T01:37:00.000-08:00

CLASS CHALET POST (WORD VERSION)
I am back from class chalet, and yes, it was AWESOME. (!!!)
We had combined chalet with 1B, but they stayed for only 2D1N while we stayed for 3D2N. :)

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Met up with shuang and yingzhen early to buy chalet stuff at white sands! I reached early as usual and horrible yingzhen was late! Bought stuffffff, lunched at superdog then we realised that we couldnt find lightsticks and sparklers at white sands so we chionged down to downtown east. Chionged back just in time to miss the shuttlebus to Aloha changi. So me shuang divya benkok played vball/soccer/monkey at the bus stop for like 1hr while waiting for the next bus!

Our chalet was at the top of some hill so by the time we went up we were kinda exhausted. We vballed and played games (Coke game Uno Twister Donkey etc!) while waiting for bbq to start. The coke game was cool, somehow many people were paired with people whom they have scandals with. Like Divya and Cherie hahaha fated. And poor me had to do the coke game with benjamin. And I had to pole dance with him too bleah. :Z

Then the BBQ. It was like the worst part of the whole chalet experience cause the guys totally forgot to buy the impt stuff like the grille and cups even though we reminded them. But nvm, at least they tried their best. And it wasnt too screwed up in the end. :)

Then comes the best part! Filled up water balloons with shuang yingzhen szewei and it was omgishly fun. Ended up wetting ourselves AND the kitchen. Then we realised the chalet was real gross so we spent the night mopping up the whole of first floor! Later on chubin titus divya helped us and we had a great time being high and singing/dancing to korean songs!

Ordered mac delivery after that! Awesum. 8D

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Woke up at 6.50am so I ended up going down to the living room to read my book cause no one else seemed awake. Then at idk what time, Sabrinaaa came and we had a nice chat. Then I went to visit 1B's chalet, then went back to wake everyone up for mass dance.

Mass dance from 9-11 am was quite cool, though the next door pple kept staring whenever they walked past. -_- After that me cherie divya shuang jolin bused to Changi village for our subway lunch. I met Aunty Patsy there (she's working there) and she gave me a treat! :D

Went back to chalet, bathed, then went to ehub with Shuang Cherie Divya Yingzhen Sihui Felicia Yufong Chubin Szewei Jeremy Titus. Met Rachel and Kianleong later on. Then went to the arcade with tribe + Rachel! Shuang and I played this truck driving thingy and we totally failed! Then I tried daytonaaa for the first time and I got first!!! Awesome. I also tried DDR with shuang! My first time too. :)

Then we watched My Girlfriend is a Secret Agent. It's one of the best shows ever, plus it's in korean! Go watch if you haven't. After that we had dinner at Thaipan! Thanks szewei for bringing us there. Oh and I told kianleong that his muscles are big and nice and I totally regret it now. (!!!!!)

Then we went back to the chalet, played card games upstairs, then had our water bomb fight! It was fun! Though the fun only lasted about 1.5 min. And we took hours filling up all the balloons!!! But oh well. After that we got changed and all then we played badminton at like 1 plus. And I played with Kiaaanleong the badminton pro heheheh I'm honoured. 8D

After that me shuang yingzhen and felicia ate maggi mee! Haha I was trying to tempt kianleong to eat maggi mee but he still didnt want to in the end. ): Oh and chubin and titus were like outside trying to make bombs with the matchboxes. Then after that the minikids (Me chubin shuang yingzhen titus!) walked all the way to changi village to get stuff from cheers and back.

Journey back was great. Played truth or dare with fellow minikids, we learnt cool stuff about each other. Ahhhh I love my fellow minikids. :>

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Woke up the earliest again and ended up doing maths/doodling for like 2hours in the living room. Then later on Kianleong came down and we played badminton! And he commented that my badminton is quite good whoo awesome. Ok so we plaaaayed until it was super late and still no one woke up so we decided to wake everyone up.

Then we packed our stuff and checked out. After that Me Shuang Chubin Yingzhen Kianleong Titus Szewei went to Just Acia for lunch. Lunch wasnt that great cause I kept feeling like vomiting. :/ After that we played the card game whoo.

After lunch I was supposed to go home but it was starting to rain and all so all of us (except shuang who cabbed home) went to szewei's house to play xbox! This time I got a better score than the previous time I went there to play!!! Though Kianleong + Chubin were horrible, they kept killing me -_- Ok after that we went home.

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END OF STORY.
Pictures another time.

Ok I know no one's reading this but nvm, I shall just post this to remember my first (and probably last) class chalet with 1A/09.

Oh and random but today before mass dance I played tap tap with chubin on Titus' iphone and I won him!!!!!!!!!! : )

The stars lean down to kiss you,

2009-11-03T05:46:00.000-08:00

Maths trail didn't go that well.
There were 3 rounds and my group was last for the first round!!! Like we were the only group that couldn't finish the 5 stations within the time limit gah! Hahaha but nvm it's only a game. :)

Lazy to blog I shall let the pictures talk:

Pictures taken by Shuang and me. I heeeeeeart the 2nd picture cause if you look closely, you will notice that the cloud is in the shape of a heart. Awesome. :)

I wish I said the words I never showed

2009-10-30T06:25:00.000-07:00

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Today was quite an awesome day.
Cherie bought a greeeeen clip for me and helped me tie my hair in the coool way. 8D

Tried doing titration during chem and I failed horribly. Everything was totally screwed and I spilled Hydrochloric acid everywhere and kinda corroded the chair. And Cherie burnt her fingers with the acid lol! But overall it was quite okayyyy. :D

After school we got to try out the youth olympics virtual world thingyyy which will only be released next year. Quite cool, except that my account kept crashing -_-

After after school, I slacked in class with Angelique Cherie Divya ValerieW and I watched Ris Low videos with Angelique while the rest slept/slacked/did idk what. Hahaha Ris Low is just boomz. (Or maybe Shingz will be more accurate) Haha but it was seriously hilarious. Oh then after that I realised there's no more mass dance practice for me so Me Angelique Divya Valerie bused to Siglap Starbucks! Whooo this made the day 29873419824 times better.

Then we chionged back to school in time for Angelique to leave for Chinatown for her lep thing. Then Me Divya Valerie went for volleyball - The Best (yet most irritating) part of the day.

I can't stand the fact that Mr Fung doesn't want to train us. Seniors don't come, then we gotta self-train?! Wth. Then the moment the seniors arrive then he comes out from his nice cosy air-conditioned office with a nice big computer and train them. Ok that's the irritating part. The fun part was practically the whole trng. Although only the 3 of us went for trng (actually only 2 cause I was the coach muahaha), it was still awesome. We kept disturbing Mr Fung for things then he seemed rather annoyed. Oh and I taught Valerie and Divya how to spike today! Though we can't really practice yet cause there's no place for us to hang up the ball thingy. Yay I'm so happy now cause Valerie can be our future setter and Divya can be our future spiker so we're one step closer to having a real team. So Valerie Wong Li Qing you'd better not quit vball okay. (!!!!!!!!!!)

And and Feliciaaa and Calistaaa called me while I was having trng! Yay but I'm really really really happy that they called even though we didn't really talk much and all. Really miss you guys at chungcheng! And I can't wait for vball chalet and camp (if there is)!!! :)

Ok that's it. Wow I didn't expect this to be a long post.

With God, there's always hope

2009-10-28T06:47:00.003-07:00

This picture from me is for everyone who is feeling sad now, regardless of the reason why. //

Life from after Promos till today has been an emotional roller coaster.
Life immediately after promos was awesome. Everyday was a happy carefree one, though there was this little fear in me, wondering how my results would be like.
Then comes Monday. Got back my papers. Got shit marks. Failed many subjects.
From Monday to Tuesday I was really in some sort of dilemma. Mom kept nagging at me. And her plan of transferring me back to a sec sch comes along. Then she started calling up teachers and stuff. And then I started to wonder if I should leave and go to some ulu sec school.
And then today.

God is merciful and will always be. It is a miracle that I passed (and I couldn't have done this without my real and awesome God), but still today was one of the worst day of my life so far.

Broke down when I saw them crying. My heart really hurts, really. I really want to do something, but what can I do? I won't mind exchanging anything in return for all of us to just stay. I badly wanted to just sit down beside A and V, hug them, comfort them. But the words just won't come out. I totally regret everything. I regret not treasuring this one year with everyone. I regret not studying hard enough. And it's unfair. Life is unfair. And when I look at D, trying so hard to just stay strong and not cry, I just broke down again. She was just keeping everything to herself. She was sad but she just wouldn't share her sadness cause she didn't want all of us to be sad with her. I really want to help but I don't know how to. Sometimes I feel so useless, all I can do is just watch.

Please cheer up. Maybe after this one obstacle in your lives, you will realise that you have grown alot stronger, braver, tougher. And one day when you look back at this horrible day, you will feel prouder as you have overcame this, and even after everything, you have still made it to the finishing line.

[edit] HAPPY BIRTHDAY GENEVIE!!!!!!!! [/edit]

The whole world is moving yet I'm standing still

2009-10-24T06:38:00.000-07:00

Today was kinda weird. Slack, yet tiring.
Slacked in the morning, studied abit after lunch, church, Senior Pastor's birthday celebration, then now I'm back home half slacking, half chionging TASCIP stuff.

Sometimes TASCIP stuff really tires me out. It's like a never ending pile of things to do. Maybe I should change the way I put it. It isn't the pile of stuff that's tiring me out -- I honestly like doing the stuff cause somehow that's what I always liked and wanted to do, but instead, it's just the fear in me that is exhausting. I really really try my best to get everything done but I always seem to do the wrong stuff. Or send in stuff late. And I'm scared I'll make Zihan angry or sth and I really don't want to do that. And again I'm scared I'll just do sth wrongly then I'll get scolded by tutors during exco meeting. Okay I know I sound like some coward that is scared of everything but yeah, somehow there's just this fear floating around in my heart or sth, idk. ): But one thing for sure, I'll do my best and not let anyone down! :)

On another note, monday's gonna be here sooon! Monday = Getting back results of every single paper. Dunno if I should be excited or nervous, but now I'm definitely more excited than nervous! I'm really just gonna leave everything to God now, I'm sure he'll get me through this. (I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.) :D

Tmrw gonna be another day out. Gonna hunt for campfire materials and prizes tmrw with my comm. Really gotta thank szewei (!) and my dearest snorting pig minikid yingzhen (!) for sacrificing their time to hunt for the stuffs with me even though they still have BS project to chiong. Heeeeeartz them.

Wow this turned out to be quite a long post.
Oh and btw Happy Birthday Senior Pastor though you won't ever see this heh heh. :B

Truth be told, I'm worried what the future holds

2009-10-23T06:06:00.000-07:00

Really loooong time since the last time I blogged properly (@ gloria-andvball) haha.
I guess I kinda lost interest in blogging.

So since the last proper post:

Promos are over!
Bought a new chio red camera!
Went on a trip to HK for 3 days 2 nights 8D
Orientation planning and preparation is really starting to kick in
I GOT MY FIRST DISCIPLINE RECORD EVER IN MY WHOLE LIFE AND IT'S GONNA STAY WITH ME FOR ANOTHER 3 WHOLE YEARS IN TJC. (!!!)
Onion's outing!
Sports Carnival ytd and tday.

Oh and speaking of my camera. I dropped my camera ytd and now there's scratches and the bottom part which you open to put in the battery and SD card can't close properly anymore. ): Poor camera with injury only 1 or isit 2 weeks (?) after I bought it. My heart really ached at that point of time ytd. ):

Ok I'm rlly lazy to post up all my pics so I shall post a few.

2 words to describe Hongkong:

Okay maybe not really cause the weather was even hotter than that of Singapore. Oh btw I edited that picture on photoshop myself!!!! First time ever :)

Next up, onion's outing. As usual I reached the earliest cause I went there from school. Ended up reaching 1.5 hours earlier then I slacked at bugis library. Even after slacking I still reached the earliest -_- Then the guys slowly started to arrive then it became really awkward for me cause it's like one girl and many guys. Then finally the rest of the class reached! We lunched at Seoul garden first.

Pictures!

Then after lunch, I went to watch 500 days of summer with Pearl, Jeanette, Szemin, Kahyong, Larry, Jinwee, Xianwei, Tim, Nigel. Hmmm the movie was so-so only. Ending was cute though.

Oh and while waiting, the guys camwhored with my camera -_- Kahyong's idea, i think. Now I finally see his true colours! Whoooo~

Ok then ytd and today was sports carnival! It was supposed to be really really fun but ytd turned out bad. (Thanks to seniors who didn't include us in the interpdp games while everyone was happily bonding as a PDP.) Haiz but they can't be blamed. Afterall the age gap is like 2 yrs. Ok so I spent the day playing vball in the sun with my lovely team excluding Julliana Ong Bao Yu the betrayer who spent her day with her squash team. Oh and Charmaine my brown twin wasn't there too cause she tore her ligament. Oh and great now my vball skills suck like crap. ): But nevermind I'll try to improve when trng starts again.

Dearest team. (Excluding Julliana and Charmaine.)

Today was much better than ytd! Interclass games. Captain's ball, Tug O War, Table tennis and another weird game (I forgot the name!). It was fun though my class lost like almost everything. Nevermind at least we did our best! :)

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Crap I took almost 3 hours to post this. Crap crap crap waste time.
Anyway Monday I'm gonna get back all my papers. Every. Single. One. Crap.
Jiayouuuuuu everyone.

Whispers hello, I miss you quite terribly

2009-10-20T07:38:00.001-07:00

Testing post! Test test test.
Haven't blogged in a long while.

Can't wait for Onion's gathering tmrw!